- jezebel demonic spirit -
'Shared from Spy Kitten TV'
'Shared from Spy Kitten TV'
Its hard to concentrate and have any self esteem when your beat on 3 -5 days a week in own your home and bedroom, by a guy who was a jerk at the time. Its just not conducive to learning, feeling shame every day you head to school, feeling lie your the weird one. Mom gave me GOD and tried to teach me how he could take the hurt away and make t better back then. I never grasped all that she was sharing but just talking to her made it a whole lot better.
For most of my life I have been falsely accused off and on, mostly from my step dad over stupid stuff, and not always come out on top either trying to defend myself. So the point is we don't know how others have made it as far as they do in this life arena with out true unconditional love. People have had it far worse then I and my brothers and sister ever had it. Both the girls married pretty good men the second time around, but the boys were never so lucky to find a mate as good as our sisters were or as good as our mother was. A lot of it is attitude ya know. Women have a way of sucking up alot of crap and still moving forward as the women did in our home. The boys got slapped around a lot, called names, told we wouldn't be anything or amount to anything.
Were we sissified? I wouldn't necessarily call it that, but more like oppressed. Mom was there to try and keep us alive thou. I am sure dad harbored some resentment always of her cheating on him, but he was a hard guy to live with I am sure. Being a Falstaff drinker and short in height, the bread winner, tired from work, and him with a ten foot attitude. So ya theres a lot of families that don't get it right but most of us stick it out of course and for many it doesn't make them a better person, much like we expect the military to make men out of boys (women out of girls) kinda thing and for some it does. Mom was the buffer zone when she was home thank God.
Pregnant at fifteen and baby at 16 - wow - that was scary for her I am sure and a new marriage thanks to her Navy Sailor husband and years later I came along and he was my step dad. He did put a good roof over our heads and accepted us cause he loved or lusted for her. Mom was a looker to say the least. Not the Greta Garbor appeal but like a Judy Garland and Rita Hayworth combined with looks and personality. She was about 37 when she had me.
She learned that to survive and improve her lifestyle and protect her kids she had to cuddle coddle and manipulate her guy. I didn't recognize she was still doing it - to me and her adult kids for the same reasons as she tried to stay middle class and with little income and no one by her side since 1976 ( her husband passed at home ), it's what she new. Then with her heart attack being so young in 1980 (at 59) she was disabled and stopped working outside the home. She had a leaky heart valve and a murmur.
Mom sent me into the world, ( just as she had done with my ex sister-in-laws son she couldn't raise up herself ). In 79 I went to Guam I took what I called a ' vacation ' and stayed three years, and grew up there around my brother and the Guamanians and Asian tourists, and the military basses (he was Air force). lol I literally cried on a San Francisco street with the trolley tracks 25 feet away, and amongst all the high rise buildings. See I never been out of Muscatine before or to a BIG city before, or on a real jet airliner or been away from home this far ever. It was exciting and scary and amazing and I made a decision not to turn around and go back to IOWA that afternoon on the streets of California. My life started just then - I hoped a Trolley Car ! And did okay for myself all those years. Guam, Hawaii a couple a times. back to the good ole IA USA. MO, ILL, a couple a kids later back to IA LOL. Iowa is home all right.
Eventually, off to all 48 States in America in 1990 ( age 32 ) and trucking. Wow what a ride and what an adventure. Divorce soon followed as the wife was bored and missed her drugs ( found a DRUG DEALER boyfriend as she was a closet drug user ) while I was working over the road ( DOT certified and trained ). A couple of times I took off to try my hand once gain in retail sales management / commission sales work which I always enjoyed in my Guam days and retail days back then. But always came back to trucking till 2015(?).
The last thing that had gotten, me I fell off a truck and broke a wrist and was laid up for 6 months, and frozen shoulder, after that that's when I found out I had diabetes and other serious health issues. I guess that's what causes me to have weak ankles, and the constant pains, and other symptoms, etc. Ive broken both feet and lost a rear tendon behind my right knee, one in my right elbow, and a car crash almost destroyed my ride shoulder rotators cuff. Might have something to do with my frozen shoulder incident's I get out of no where.
So, no income, no work, a couple of ex in laws as an extended family and here I am. Oh and a gang of women who hate men and the world. The feminist movement has really destroyed the sexes today, which all started back in the late 50s early 60s by the Illuminati Nazi CIA funded propaganda machine. That conspiracy that J F Kennedy talked about was true and its just as real today as ever. Most women haven't a clue let alone the american public, but a couple of million have woken up, which was enough extra to get TRUMP elected. for that matter. So I am fighting the good fight. And hanging in there with my Jesus mom gave me lol. That's what keeps me from having a ballistic bi-polar episode most of the time. And I learned with anger management to walk out on stressful events and come back again later lol. Seriously THE BIGGEST HELP IS JESUS in me - HAVING THE HOLY SPIRIT OF GODS SPIRITUAL ESSENCE INSIDE YOUR VESSEL BODY. Being connected with him is far different than being an independent free spirit in self absorption. Someone greater than me, along and with my spirit, we are one, who is LOVE, keeps me in good places.
Self love is an egotistical jezebel spirited destroyer. Its self centered self righteous and self crucifying to idolize ones self. To help anyone understand the spirit of GOD then seek and research 'Near Death Experiences' on youtube. The sciences would have you believe its just a chemical explosion...in ones brain from trauma. The same people who want you to believe Aluminum sulfate, barium and other chemicals sprayed in our atmosphere almost daily isn't lethal pollution and helps ward off the UV effects and radiation in the atmosphere and global warming aka 'CLIMATE HOAX' for a Carbon Tax to transfer wealth to the tyrants of the 3rd worlds. How long before all the technologies they are developing comes together against 7 billion people on earth ?
So what am I up against you ask that makes me write all this? CONSCIENCE. The spiritual conscience of others desires to be their own g_d and force others to submit to their ways and will, fueled. by a lack of LOVE.
Can you sue a spirit thou?, lol Nope not really lol. Any one else hate lawyers - as much as me - see, their lips move ya know. Sure they are a necessary evil when good people get sucked into stuff they never created. Even the bad people don't have a clue as to why they are on the wrong side of things, but they are and they have to decide is the cost worth it to win.
In my book 'Win' means people come together and part as friends or at least not enemies. Sports teaches us how to battle with respect and walk away with a greater respect. But that's being lost from our schools, and being taught in DEMONSTRATIONS and on the street. A money award by a court is merely a man made legal punishment for good people doing bad stuff. Money - we never had it coming in to the world and we wont have it going out either. People conspire, even when they get sucked in.
Sometimes people just have to cause the establishment system and the norm is to sue, seeking revenge or justice or reward of legal restitution. Me I just want to get better and live a normal consciousness.
14 pages or more of people being wronged, trying to do what ever with, using the legal system - https://www.fairhousingcoach.com/category/online-alerts/cases-and-settlements?page=1 Really sad and selfish. Does the US and taxpayers we the people of Muscatine deserve such a punishment.
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People have free will to get along. People don't always understand each other and or necessarily the messages they are sending across so they become excited, offended, disillusioned, determined, scared, apprehensive, fearful, have a fight or flight response, or a breakdown. lol.
Me, I got Jesus....it really helps.
